peace out brother

“We all shine on…like the moon and the stars and the sun…we all shine on…come on and on and on…” ― John Lennon


I speak to my brother Monday evening, he’s not feeling well, has no appetite and is complaining of dizziness. Tuesday, he sees a doctor (telemedicine) and is prescribed something for vertigo. Doctor’s orders also include he be tested for Covid. By Wednesday morning he is gone. He tests positive for Covid-19, postmortem. (WTF!!)

There is a lot going on for our family. I know we are not alone. There is much going on in our county and in the world.

For now, I work a portrait of my brother because travel is limited and so are burials. It sucks that the family can’t be together. And while I always come to new work with focus, it’s not happening this time.

One of my sisters has a photo of our brother with his New York Yankees baseball cap. He smiles and holds out a peace sign. Puro Chacho, the capture is perfect. I decide to use it.  I don’t know yet if and how the image will translate into a study.

The ground work, a city map of El Paso, focuses on the area where we grew up and where he still hung out.

For a good while now, each time I fly back, he and I make a habit of taking a Sunday afternoon drive.

I lay down the map and recall some of those drives. Chacho enjoys driving, has an excellent sound system and likes loud music. The sound comes down when he wants to point something out to me. I’ve been gone a long time and I know he enjoys re-introducing me to the city. We often look for murals. The streets of El Paso have some fine street art.

In my studio, the dilemma…
My brother is no longer in body. I’m piecing things together and formulating a picture.  I don’t know exactly how to move forward. I’ve never worked this way. I’ll figure it out.

I miss you brother. Way to young to exit. I wish you’d stay’d around longer.
Peace out Chacho.

FYI…Chacho is short for muchacho which means boy in Spanish. He grew up the only muchacho among 5 muchachas.


Pay attention, take care of yourself and others. Stay alive.
And VOTE. We need strong, intelligent and caring leadership.